How Our Language Prevents Healing Awareness

How would you describe the picture just above? Chances are you either have no words at all or many words.

It’s quite the opposite problem when it comes to the word ‘mind’ because this one word means so many different things. Dictionary definitions for ‘mind’ include the faculty of consciousness and thought; a person’s intellect; a person’s memory; a person’s attention; and the will. Synonyms include brain, wits, understanding, and sanity.

That is confusing as heck! How is it possible for the mind to be all those things? I think we need new words to separate the meanings!

Our language gets in the way of understanding each other and the world around us. We are often prevented from learning the lessons we need in our lives because we’ve got such an emotional attachment to some words that they actually cause a reaction or even prevent us from seeing what may be right in front of us.

For instance, it’s difficult to discuss the nature of our consciousness using the words brain, body, or mind.

“The brain and mind are both involved in consciousness and the terms are often used interchangeably but the brain and the mind are not the same.”

Billi Gordon Ph.D., Psychology Today

Perhaps conscious-awareness and bodymind-awareness work better to differentiate between the self and the bodymind. A discussion is more straightforward if we think of those two things (self+bodymind) as distinct from each other – especially concerning what we can work on to make improvements.

As it turns out, seems like Wilhelm Reich and his protege, Dr. Charles Kelley, were way ahead of their time with the development of body consciousness therapies!


We perceive ourselves as having possession of a body, but not as having a relationship with it. We consider that we have a mind, not that we are the mind. We should also be able to discuss the nature of our consciousness without getting into an obtuse discussion about parts of the brain and names of hormones. Words can ensnare us emotionally and so easily trap us with illusions from misunderstood meanings and concepts, so more basic words make it easier to achieve healing awareness through an understanding of complex concepts.

Learning that the body is mind changes everything about our understanding of human nature. And it changes the way we should approach healthcare.

Considering we’ve known about the conscious and the subconscious for well over 100 years, it shouldn’t be too far outside of anyone’s reality to understand the nature of our consciousness in these simple terms: self is conscious, the bodymind is subconscious. Simple. Two minds, one body.

SO FOR THE sake of conversation, let’s say that the body has a mind of its own. We have referred to this bodymind by many different names in every language across our cultures. Some of these words might include ego, subconscious, shadow self, alter-ego, personal demons, our dark side, or the devil.

When our language makes things confusing, it doesn’t make it very easy for us to discuss the parts of us which hurt or the part of us that seems to want to harm us. It’s difficult to differentiate the dark side of our minds as something apart from us when we don’t have the appropriate words to use.

For anyone looking to heal themselves from pain, learning to have a civil internal conversation with yourself instead of beating yourself up mentally all the time is a good place to start. If we can begin treating ourselves (your awareness, your sense of self, your consciousness) and our body (that other voice in your head, the subconscious mind) as two separate things, then we’ll be able to eventually separate ourselves from the morass of thoughts which our bodymind continually generates.


Once we separate ourselves from our thoughts, we can bear witness of the dualistic relationship inside own heads. We say, “Me and my body,” or, “My body and I.” This makes sense because we tend to refer to “our body” as something we own. There’s no other way to speak. “These are my legs,” I say. And “inside this head, is my brain.”

That’s how we refer to parts of ourselves when we speak to others, so why not just continue this tradition inside your head? It’s not just the relationship you have with your body; it’s also the relationship your body has with you, and this is what we mean when we say that we must listen to our body.

When we mistreat our bodies, then our bodies can do things to retaliate. The subconscious mind is bodymind-awareness, and the body has a powerful impulse to survive, with or without our participation. We already know our body can have us do things outside our control; we end up stopping by the liquor store on the way home without realizing it, and we have that fight with our body’s addictions and end up losing.

We can turn this self-hate relationship around and take a different approach to wellness. “Hello, bodymind! Let’s work together on solving this chronic pain thing, shall we?”

Unfortunately, our culture would have us believe that we have a self+self relationship when we’re “arguing with ourselves.” But it doesn’t make any sense to describe things that way. There needs to be some separation of the self from the rest of the machine, or else nothing makes sense, and we’re doomed to inevitable misery.


There’s more to this logic, and I’m sure you’ll agree it makes a lot of sense to treat self and bodymind separately. We want to learn to have a positive self+bodymind relationship because self-healing is impossible without such a connection.

It’s a battle we fight in our minds. It’s a battle which rages on whether we’re aware of it or not. Even more precisely, the struggle is between our conscious awareness and the 37 trillion cells we share our body with, whether the cells “are the self” or whether the cells “belong to self.”

The reason this separation of self from bodymind approach works for chronic pain management is then we don’t need to take the blame for everything, and we don’t have to be so hard on ourselves. We don’t need to take everything so personally, and we don’t have to beat ourselves up when we have momentary lapses of reason. It goes with the territory. We want to learn better control over the reactive side of things, that’s all.

Two separate forms of awareness inside one container. This perspective unlocked all kinds of new possibilities with my chronic pain management, and it will likely do the same for you.

These concepts are all elaborated more clearly on the Mind-Awareness section of The Ultimate Healing Guide, so be sure to check it out.


The Magic of Cannabis Nobody Talks About

On a personal basis, I consider cannabis to be a divine plant. Quite frankly, I have serious doubts whether I would have found my way to self-healing without it. As a medical marijuana patient in Colorado, my doorway to self-forgiveness, self-compassion, and gratitude was opened thanks to the use of this beautiful plant medicine.

With the help of the plant, I found inner bliss and resolve for my condition; I reconnected with my heart and found my inner guide. Nobody ever speaks of these massive intangible benefits. Also, I avoided opioids for pain management, so I can’t say enough good about cannabis and how thankful I am for having had prescribed access to the green stuff since 2011.

I vaporize micro-doses of plant medicine to help me overcome the pain of my daily flexibility and postural strength training. The effects of the herb are immediate, and it helps me to achieve an intense healing awareness of my bodymind during morning pain management rituals. Perhaps even more importantly, it helps me find the motivation to get up and move by providing a deeply satisfying relationship with my body. It also helps me reconnect with my emotions, which is vital to my self-awareness.

In my experience, ingesting a dose of cannabis edibles about an hour before a massage or float session is pure magic. Just recently I was able to contact the moment of my deepest pain (from when my mom died just before I turned three years old) and release a tremendous amount of emotional trauma during massage therapy. I contend that without having taken plant medicine to assist me with this, massage therapy would have been far less effective. I would go so far as to say that with cannabis, my tissue massage was 10x as rewarding than it would have been without it. I was able to connect with my bodymind on a deeper level than otherwise possible.

The Spiritual and Healing Effects of Cannabis

The spiritual and healing effects of cannabis are well documented, and many books have been written about it. The point is, we don’t need to wait for “studies” to be done to know as a species how good it works for us. Afterall, the pot plant has been used as a medicine for thousands of years, and our culture was one of the first to make it so completely taboo.

One major intangible benefit of cannabis I receive is the ability to overcome depression and find an enormous motivation to take care of myself which otherwise goes completely ignored. Without using cannabis in one form or another, I never find the motivation needed to the bodywork required to stay healthy. However, after a single dose of weed, I find myself motivated to spend hours doing yoga, foundation training, or taking the time to meditate.

If you want to hear some passionate discussion about the spiritual and healing benefits of cannabis, listen to any one of these Joe Rogan podcasts. He’s the only other person I’ve heard talk about it so liberally, and he presents solid and logical arguments on behalf of legalization.

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Rocky Mountain High, Colorado

The depths of my despair and anxiety were turned around by the fortune of living in one of the most progressive states on the legalization of marijuana. Believe me, I don’t take it for granted. Used in microdoses, a little cannabis vapor keeps me going when I would otherwise succumb to my pain and depression. A small enough dose will help me overlook my disability for a few hours so that I can focus on the more critical issues in my life. I get close to what I imagine it must be like to “feel normal” without chronic pain. Who wouldn’t want that?

If I were to define what I believe enlightenment to be, I would say this about it: enlightenment would mean having a conscious control over yourself at all times; this includes conscious control of your body, your mind, your reactions, your thoughts, your viewpoints, your opinions, your external influences, the strength of your bonds with family and friends, your expectations, your communication, etc. To put it bluntly: medical cannabis allowed me to become enlightened.

We eventually all learn that we cannot control what happens in the world and that we cannot fix a broken world. We discover we can only control ourselves. If you can’t imagine having control of any one of those things in the list above, then perhaps that’s a place to start for you. We need to find a chink in the armor, a crack in the shell somewhere within our consciousness. Who wants to be out of control? Without a doubt, cannabis helped me to imagine a better future for myself where I was in control more often and less reactive in adverse situations.

Learning about the relationship between your awareness and your bodymind can make all the difference in the world. Unfortunately, our language and modern medicine have screwed things up to make it all the more confusing. Is our brain the mind? Are the mind and our thoughts the same as our self-awareness? Is the brain something different than the body?

If Mind and Body are not separate things, then why do we have one kind of doctor for the mind and another sort of doctor for the body? Well, that’s the problem then, isn’t it? Especially if we are trying to help expand awareness that the body is mind, it starts to make less sense that these doctors would have utterly separate career paths, doesn’t it?

In such a flawed model of the human body, mind, and consciousness, there’s no possible reality within that framework where self-healing can happen. How could we impose upon the body and the mind the will of our consciousness if it’s all scrambled up together?

Self+BodyMind & Cannabis

Undoubtedly we can all agree that we appear to share our self-awareness with another intelligence system which keeps us alive. Our bodies are complex electrical organic organisms with colonies of cells of different kinds all working together to make our heart beat, our food digest, and our cells to regenerate. A wondrous intelligent network averaging 37 trillion cells (an inconceivable number), exchanging as many as 300 different molecules of information, and communicating with each other at the speed of light through our central nervous system.

A biological marvel for sure, and one which gives us the gift of life. Seemingly separate from all that automated organic intelligence, our consciousness exists within the same structure, self-aware and capable of reflecting upon our thoughts. We are capable of driving the body and controlling the mind, but we are also vulnerable to the cravings of the body and the whims of the mind to the degree we lack discipline. Trillions of cells working on our behalf.

So isn’t it interesting that on the surface of those trillions of cells which make up our bodies are tiny receptors seemingly custom-tailored for cannabinoid molecules? What if cannabinoids are an empathy molecule we need more of? It seems as though the cannabis plant can flip our cannabinoid receptors on; doing so brings instant relief of unwanted symptoms such as pain or anguish. It does so in a way which allows one to connect with the self-healing resources already present within the three brains of heart, mind, and gut.

Having cannabinoid receptors does not automatically mean they were made to be filled with cannabinoids derived by burning the cannabis flower.

However, mankind has used the plant for eons. There must be some kind of a relationship between our bodies and the plant. Despite records going back 4,700 years that document medicinal uses of cannabis, no one knew how it worked until 1964. But the research of the plant as a medicine came to a grinding halt with the passage of the 1970 Controlled Substance Act, and thus one of the greatest plant medicines of all time was held out of reach for over four decades.

Thankfully our minds are changing about plant medicine. As of mid-2018, about 65 percent of Americans no longer think smoking weed is a bad thing; that’s a solid majority of folks! And other plant medicines such as psilocybin mushrooms and DMT are making their way into therapies for trauma relief (in experimental stages).

The stigma from traditional conservative thinking about marijuana is that it’s a “gateway drug.” If that’s so, it is my personal experience that it’s a drug to the gateway of self-healing. The drug is powerful when used the right way, with the right frame of mind, and in the correct dosage. This explains why personal experimentation is required to figure out what works. It shouldn’t be a surprise; it’s the same approach psychs take with their liberal prescriptions of pharmaceutical psychotropics.

Medicial Cannabis Can Help Self-Healing

Consider for a moment that it is perhaps this relationship between cannabinoids and our cell receptors, plus the fact that the mind permeates every cell of the human body, which explains why marijuana can have such a profound effect upon our consciousness?

The magic nobody talks about when people are against weed include many intangible benefits which are most likely appreciated only by those who need it as a medicine and not those who abuse it for recreation. In my experience as well, cannabis helps me feel close to pain-free; it helps me have a good day, show compassion for myself and others, and get my work done so I can pay the mortgage. Without it, I’m a grumpy bastard always feeling sorry for myself and drinking too much in desperate compensation for my unwanted pain. Alcohol doesn’t help. Marijuana does.

Without the magic of the divine plant, I may have ended up dead a lot sooner than I would have preferred. I was racing around like an idiot, mad at the world, and frustrated with my lack of self-control. I experienced car accidents and crippling back spasms. I felt loathing for myself, and my self-esteem was non-existent. Medical marijuana helped turn that all around. Plant medicine helped me to overcome my pain each time for long enough that I was able to find my way away from suffering for more extended periods without it.

With the help of a plant, I was able to find my path towards self-healing. And that’s the magic of cannabis nobody talks about.


Our Path Towards BodyMind Self-Healing

Everyone here on Earth is fighting for survival. As part of living our lives, we are all seemingly penalized in one form or another as payment for the privilege of being alive, and this equates to pain. But some of us need to fight even more fiercely just to live!

For folks in chronic pain, we must always fight harder to live our lives than others who don’t know what it feels like to start every day with a detriment or handicap. But when we run away from how we feel and cover it up with narcotics or other drugs and alcohol, we are no longer in a relationship with our bodies; being detached from our bodies is being without emotion. This is what it must feel like to be a member of the walking dead.

Our lives are worth fighting for. If you don’t feel like fighting for your life, then this is the very first reason why you must learn to heal yourself. Everyone holds onto the hope that, one day soon, things will improve. This hope relies upon your heart, but you need to reach down and connect with it to receive it. How?

There are many, many ways to help people recover from trauma in the 21st century, and so in nine out of ten cases, your invisible wounds can be healed. There is always room for improvement. There’s more reason now than ever to H.O.P.E. self-healing is possible! (except in extreme cases of stage-4 disconnection from the self and bodymind.)

Learn to Believe in Yourself

It starts with belief in yourself. If you would be willing to trust yourself and listen to the guidance of your heart, you can find a way to reduce or otherwise learn to live with your pain. Whether this means learning to live life despite the pain or finding a path to the miracle of self-healing, it is entirely up to you. You must become determined you want to change and feel better, and the only place the motivation will come is from your heart. It means learning self-compassion.

You cannot hear your heart if you are drugged numb, or are coiled up so tightly that your pain is a whole bodymind pain. Perhaps your fibromyalgia represents body armor made up of the micro-spasms throughout your muscle tissues? Such unrelenting tension, which is ultimately a partial or full-body web of micro-spasms, is undoubtedly a result of childhood trauma between birth and age seven. The body of evidence for this is substantial.

Contrary to 20th-century beliefs, we now have many ways out of our pain without drugs and surgery. What I mean by “out of our pain” is a relative phrase, entirely dependent upon your perspective and circumstances. Many people have learned to live their lives, in spite of their pain. They are pioneering the courage it takes to face our pain, and learn to live with it in a way which isn’t as crippling.

The Science of MindBody

The evidence, as reported by dozens of respectable M.D.’s, Ph.D.’s, Physiologists, is that our bodies hold trauma in the cells. Your body remembers. Whether it was severe emotional trauma or severe physical trauma, these defining events from our lives continue to exist within our very cells. Not just the brain, but the entire body.

Whether emotional or physical, these events carried impact energy into our tissues. For people who are in chronic pain, impact energy stored in our bodies is manifesting itself as that pain. This stored impact energy, referred to as cellular memory, is what gets triggered when we lose control of ourselves. Hidden variables from our environment can cause abrupt changes in our thoughts and behaviors, without us being aware of it all until afterward.

The science of epigenetics has proven that our trauma experiences pass all the way to our grandchildren!

The only way such a thing is possible is if the body’s cells are writing experiential memory into our DNA strands as a long-term memory mechanism. The source of our worries lives within the very tissues of our flesh.

What this means is that what you’ve always known, and what you’ve been avoiding your entire life: the only way out of pain is walking through the veil of past traumatic events, sometimes by reliving painful memories; and sometimes by uncovering forgotten painful memories. Lucky for us, modern mind-body medicine takes the entire self+bodymind system into account.

The only way to return to a relationship with your body is to recover the ability to listen to it, to increase self-awareness. If you lack a good relationship with your bodymind, you are missing out on millions of signals it’s sending while trying to reach you. Our pain essentially represents our body’s screaming to release trauma, to look into horrors of our past and move through them. This can be done with a little help from modern mind-body science.

We Can’t Do It Alone

However, almost everyone needs help pushing through each threshold of recovery, and this is why social interaction and groups are so crucial to any possible recovery plan. With help, we can face our childhood traumas and face our fears. 

When we do not confront our pain, we experience more pain by running away from it. Traumatic events hold energy which can take control of our bodymind without our conscious awareness. Such events are made possible by a mechanism in our brain which shuts off or bypasses our conscious awareness even when we recall a painful incident. The cells are continually recording their experience, and trauma remains held within the cells. It explains why we’ll feel pain in different areas of our bodies.

This Ultimate Guide to BodyMind Self-Healing will help point you towards your path of self-healing. It contains a ton of practical information you can use right now to help relieve suffering for yourself and those you love.

What Letting Go Means

You’ve heard it said to “just let go,” but nobody ever mentions what that means. How can we “just let go” and how do we know if it has happened?

In my experience, once I have reviewed my traumatic memories enough times, whether during meditation or during a therapy session, the energy is either dissipated or otherwise it moves into a place where it can no longer bother me. This is what letting go has felt like; the release of trauma is always a major relief!

Also, I relate the pain of physical rehabilitation as similar to the pain of mental rehabilitation: rehab is painful, whether you’re learning to walk after an accident, or learning to reconnect with the world after your tour of combat.

The only way to let go is by facing the pain head-on. And when we finally look at what has always remained just out of view, we re-classify the events by moving the case files from the subconscious and into conscious awareness. Upon full evaluation of our bad incidents, they no longer hold power over our thoughts or actions.

We thereby deflate the traumatic grip of painful events from our childhood. Eventually, this deflation can become permanent. We reassign the impact of those events through the process of bringing our awareness to the pain within our bodies, our cells.

When we learn how to listen to our bodymind, self-healing can begin. The calmness of body and mind is where self-awareness resides.